Parenting After Infertility and Loss: You’re Allowed to Complain

I clamped my hands over my ears as the obstetrician cranked up the volume on the ultrasound machine. After three pregnancy losses, I was convinced that we’d be met only with static.

“I think you’re going to want to hear this,” the doctor said. And there was the unmistakable drumming of my son’s heart.

At that moment, I promised myself that I would always be grateful for this baby, and for my body that found a way to grow with him. And yet, when it’s 4:58 a.m. and I’m awakened by him bellowing for potato chips and cartoons, parenting can